Been having lots of ups and downs lately… Just can’t seem to shake it. I wish I could stop thinking about the future so much, and where I’m going. Would be so much easier to live day-to-day and now stress myself out over the bigger things in life. Stuff just gets to me too easily. I end up laying awake in bed at night staring at the ceiling… as my mind just WON’T STOP. Gets annoying after awhile… I keep trying and trying to focus myself, and block out all the thoughts. Sometimes working on websites helps, but eventually I run out of stuff to do… Then I’m back where I started. Getting excited over possibilities in the future that just end up getting me down.
I mean, I want to trust people, but its hard for me now. I’ve been hurt so many times, walked all over and what-not, that I have a hard time letting myself trust anyone, or get close to anyone. Blah…. I’ve talked myself into not even knowing where I was going with this… I guess thats a sign its time for bed. G’night…..